'Dream of Swan'

I came across this song again today. A song called '거위의꿈', 'Dream of Swan'. I believe this song is not at all a stranger to Koreans. Every Koreans seems to know how to sing this. The first time i heard this was on "Star King", sang by a group of blind children. Together with the meaning of the lyrics, it's a song about chasing our dreams.

My very own sunshine, JunSu oppa has also sang this song before. A short duet with a girl on "Star King". Undeniably, he is always good at portrait the lyrics in his voice. So making me have goosebumps.



And then today, i heard this heart-touching song again in "Beethoven Virus". It is a cut scene from the last episode of the drama, where all the members of the orchestra was doing their last performance. A flashback of what they have gone through together as the orchestra band came to the end and every member to move on with their own lives.

I just could not help myself to tear whenever i listen to this song. Every words of the lyrics is so touching and the singer who sang this has a really beautiful voice. It's a sad sad yet encouraging song. I am just addicted to it right now.



Here is lyrics of the song:
거위의꿈(天鹅的梦) 歌词
난 난 꿈이 있었죠 버려지고 찢겨 남루하여도
我，我曾经有个梦 曾被抛弃曾被遗忘 虽那么破旧

내 가슴 깊숙이보물과 같이 간직했던 꿈
象我心底深藏的宝物般的梦

혹 패론 누군가가 뜻 모를 비읏음
或者有时有人会不明的嘲笑

내 등 뒤에 흘릴 때도
在我身后 遗留着

난 참아야 했죠 참을 수 있었죠 그날을 위해
我要忍受，可以忍受，为了那一天

*늘 적정하듯 말하죠 헛된 꿈은 둑이라고
总是担心的说，不可实现的梦就是毒药

세상은 끝이 정해진 책처럼 이미돌이킬 수 없는
世界就象一本一些好的书，一切都无法返回
현실이라고
现实

그래요 난 난 꿈이 있어요
是的，我，我有着梦

그 꿈을 믿어요 나를 지켜봐요
我相信那个梦，请关注着我

저 차갑게 서있는 운명이란 벽 앞에
在那叫命运的冰冷的墙前面

당당히 마주칠 수 있어요
勇敢的去面对

언젠가 난 그 벽을 넘고서
总有一在我将翻越那面墙

저 하늘을 높이 날을 수 있어요
可以飞向那片天空

이 무거운 세상도 나를 묶을 순 없죠
这沉重的世界也无法捆绑住我

내 삶의 끝에서 나 읏을 그 날을 함께해요
在我生的尽头，我们一起微笑着面对那一天吧

*그래요 난 난 꿈이 있어요
是的，我，我有着梦

그 꿈을 믿어요 나를 지켜봐요
我相信那个梦，请关注着我

저 차갑게 서있는 운명이란 벽 앞에
在那叫命运的冰冷的墙前面

당당히 마주칠 수 있어요
勇敢的去面对

언젠가 난 그 벽을 넘고서
总有一在我将翻越那面墙

저 하늘을 높이 날을 수 있어요
可以飞向那片天空

이 무거운 세상도 나를 묶을 순 없죠
这沉重的世界也无法捆绑住我

내 삶의 끝에서 나 읏을 그 날을 함께해요
在我生的尽头，我们一起微笑着面对那一

Home Sweet Home

Well… everyone says this when they are finally home. “Home sweet home.” It’s so true that there’s no other place like our own home.

I thought that mine would be like usual, full of expectation and finally PRIVACY! Somehow, this home coming seems to be a little out of expectation. Fallen sick the moment I stepped into the house. As for the privacy part – not quite much of my own time and again was being dragged to shop to help out. As if there is not enough drama, mom seems to like nagging around a lot recently. She is always bugging us around with her “Eat Healthy Food” talk when me and brother appeared in front of her. Once she started, she can really go a long way. Seriously, do not blame us from turning away from you mom, because it is so getting on my nerves. There was really once that I was in my verge to tell her to zip it, but I just could not be that rude to my own mother. Eventually, I’ll just complain to brother or suck it all up.

The time is ticking and I am wasting every second of it. It’s already the second week of the holidays and Christmas is just around the corner. In no time at all, I will be leaving again and year 2009 shall come to an end. Every TV shows is already recapping the big events that have happened throughout the year. Guess I’ll just have to accept the fact that time really flies hell so fast. Undeniably, there has been so much happening throughout the year, so fast that I could hardly take a grip of what is happening around me. It’s like I was sleep-walking through my days. It’s not only just this new year, when every time, one new year is added on to the calendar, there will be a lot of changes, like changing phases of life. People will come and go, seasons will change and people will also change.

Well… for this coming new phase of my life, I am so looking forward for what will come my way. The clock hit12 already and it’s Christmas Eve. Happy Christmas everyone!

'You're Beautiful'

Two days of burning the midnight candles, finally finished this Korean drama called "You're Beautiful”. It is actually called "미남이시네요". This must be news for some friends because I’m actually watching Korean drama. To be real honest, this is the second Korean drama ever I have watched. I am kinda not a drama person and once if I started, I can’t wait to get a grip of the gist of everything and of course what the ending is. Even it's a novel, I would never slow down because I am too curious and no patience to move slowly.

Well... the point here is not about me, I am actually really liking these OST in this drama. The plot of the drama – typical “idol drama”. My kpop bud described it as the “coffee prince + flower over boys” drama. I totally agree to that! With regards to the story, it's actually surrounding a group of boy band. One of them who played the band member is actually a member from a Korean group called FT Island. I have not acknowledged about them, but there was once I heard the vocal sang randomly in a variety show. He was actually surprisingly so good and then now again when I listen to him sing again in this drama, I really love the way he sings. His voice is somewhat husky, but then it’s full of power and feelings.



There's also another someone i get to know in this drama - the main actor. His name is Jang Geun Suk. Knew that he has been in "Beethoven Virus", a korean drama before. Quite a big transformation he has, acting in drama like this one. From the cool manly guy into a chic edgy stiff fella. But somehow, i think he has really changed in person as well. From what i have researched, he is actually really flexible to all kind of style. He used to be this short hair-dark skin with beard guy.







And now he has somewhat abandoned his tan and beard and changed into a chic edgy guy.







This guy definitely has his own unique character. I shall describe him as a carefree celebrity. He makes smoking looks hot and drag queen looks cool. Why do i say that? He has actually transformed into a drag queen and performed in a huge award show before. Thumbs up for that! He can even sing and dance and play instruments. So much of a multi-talented artist. :D

Go catch up on the drama!


*I do not own any of these pictures and videos. Credits to logos.

Happy Birthday my forever sunshine<3

I should have wrote this yesterday but i didn't. Was catching on dramas. Well... now i should say: Happy belated Birthday my forever sunshine!

Having to witness everything that has happened around them for 4 years, i cant help but to think that me, myself and the guys have really grown up. Does people really have to change when it comes the time to grow up? Even under unwilling circumstances, surrounding will more or less change a person. Then is it even true to say: as time goes by, fashion changes, style changes, but i will never change? All those passion that were used to be in your hearts, how you used to think of capturing a dream together, are these still there right at this moment? Regarding all that has happened these days, forgive me for questioning. All those 'used-to-be', have they been forgotten?

I believe what i see, and i believe what i feel. I know who are you guys and that is what i chose to believe. I could close my eyes and ears, and turn away from what i chose not to believe because i chose to go on with the the ones who held me up at day one. Could you guys at least prove that we did not make the wrong choice? Or it's just that you guys have really changed?

Maybe it's right for me to say that something's different now, but you will always be that sunshine i knew from day one. The one who has never fail to lighten up my days. The "youngest" one and the innocent one. Now that one year has been added to your history, i know you will be able to find your own way. Once again, Happy birthday Sunshine...

the tears of a child

Sort of finished the consti tutorial today and was chilling on my seat watching variety shows. As a result, i ended up laughing as well as crying.

I wonder, who would not cry when it comes to talking about our own parents. As parents, i understand that they would always wanna protect us, they would sacrifice everything to keep us safe and in the best ever, even if it is about risking their own life. Never will i doubt the love of my parents.

We as children will also wanna do the same for them. I believe our parents have been child to their own parents and know how it's like to be in our shoes. Who would not? When it comes to parents, i believe every child will tear. Same as them, we wanna do our best for them, we wanna make them proud, we would wanna do anything to make their life happy and even it's about our life. We do love our parents, but sometimes it's like a norm for children to fight back, to talk back, to be rebellion. Through times, we will have to go through these stages to come to realize how wrong we were. Some people will manage to see the picture clearly very soon, but some never get to their senses before there no more chance to make things right. How sad can this be. Bringing along a regret in life to live on. Because you cannot fulfill what a child has got to do for their parents. So, dun hold back on your love when there's chance to do so. There's a chinese sayings:樹欲靜而風不息，子欲養而親不在

Heart-throbbing

Just watched the highly anticipated movie - "The Twilight Saga-New Moon" with housemates and friends yesterday. I have been waiting for this day like since forever. It took a whole year for the second installment movie to be out. I still remember last year, almost the same time of the month, the first Twilight movie showed in theater. As excited as ever, counting down the days. Even before stepping into the theater, i have expected that the movie is not as interesting as people expect it to be due to the bad reviews. Despite all those ratings, i will still gonna pay in no matter how. Hey, we are the mania after all.

Thank God we bought our tickets on the website earlier. You know it's no joke when it comes to Twilight movies. Plus, it's a public holiday. Clearly the cinema will be packed and well... as expected, the queue was extra long which i have never seen before, even during weekends. Dun ask me whether they are too queuing for 'New Moon', but surely there were lots of people. Lucky for us, sorry for them. We could just collect the tickets in minutes.

I would say the movie was better, in my opinion, compared to the first one. More actions and of course the animations for the wolf pack, that's my favourite. Maybe because the director has been changed to a male director, there are definitely more action sequence in this one. As expected, Edward appeared lesser and Jacob is the main for this movie. I really love the part when the wolfs transform. Goosebumps~~ i would say that is my favourite part. Not to mention their six packs. *drools* lol... But to me, no matter how appealing Jacob is in the movie, i am still team Edward and team Robert like always. I like watching Robert Pattinson as Edward, I even adore Robert Pattinson in person. Heart-throbbing, messy and sexy hunk. *Faints* The character Edward is definitely too good to be true. How on earth can you find some guy who would love you like he does? Ever so protective, ever so secure just to be by his side. To add on to that perfection, he's a vampire! Can he get any hotter? Dun blame the girls for wanting Edward to bite them. Do not even blame them for screaming their heads off when they see Robert Pattinson. Who would not for a guy that smexy? Forgive me for being so out of control, but i really have to admit that this guy is driving me crazy.

I really think for those who have not read the books and not even watched the first movie, they will only end up yawning in their seats. It is much related from incidents in Twilight. Like the reason why Victoria is hunting for Bella, like why Jasper would react differently than the others when he saw blood from Bella's wound. Despite bad reviews and ratings, i will still not miss it for the world. The movie even beat dark knight on its premiere day. Just imagine that! The movie has been a hit since from the first day. And now, i am already looking forward for the third installment. Good news for us because the movie will be showed on 30th June next year. It's so much sooner than the rest. But still, there's no news that the last book will be made into movie. I hope it does, it's the essence of the whole story. It's crazy and insane so that's why they find it almost impossible to film it.

Overall, satisfaction overload. Just wish Edward could have appear more in the film. Will definitely pay it to watch it the second time.

Proud of you guys

Congratulations on receiving the 2009 MAMA Best Asia Star Awards!!

Even though the circumstance today has changed, in the name of TVXQ you guys received this award, this will never change. Only three attended the ceremony,with no luxurious clothes and make ups, no stylist and body guards. The other two was forbidden to attend. Apart from all these, I truly believe that the award was presented to TVXQ and was accepted by TVXQ. This is the true fact, no matter how other denies.

Stop crying, and dun cry. I believe this is not the end for you guys. As long as you guys still know that we are here to stay, come back whenever it's the right time. Like what you guys said, this name will go on forever, this name will shine not only throughout Asia, but to places other than Asia.

Know Japan schedule resumes next week. What a good thing finally to hear from you guys. Shame on those of own country who gave up on you guys. Even Japan will not wanna do so. Never mind them. If you guys really have what it takes, the group will success no matter where you go.

Love you guys, always will, always have.

I stuck in the middle of my mind, others stuck for words to say.

So stuck in the middle of my own thoughts now, goin back and forth.

When people say that you should follow your heart, just do whatever you wanna do. Is this even true? This is just a good and positive way to say it. Isn't this behaviour consider to be selfish? Sometimes, the world is not only about yourself. It's not about what you think is right and what is wrong. It's not about what you should do and what you should not do. There are these norms that we should follow. If people thinks this way, it goes this way. No matter what you do, it will still not alter any of their thoughts. That is why the reason i feel so dilemma. On one hand, i have my thoughts of doin things my way, on the other hand, should i do it? How will people think of me when i have done it. The most important of all, how will my own parents think of me?

I tried talking to friends about this. Like i said, they were all stuck for words to say. I know now that this is a personal feeling, it's subjective and no one will provide an appropriate advice or comfort to me and tonight, i shall sleep on my pillow and figure this out myself.

Proud

时光飞逝
一转眼已经换了好几个季节
走在熟悉的街景中
我一个人还深陷在遥远的记忆中无法自拔
几乎要走投无路
在那时我遇见了你

在这条街上遇见你
至今仍无法忘怀自那天起
那么多的悲伤还有内心的不安
所有这一切
都在你的温暖中幻化成回忆
Proud of your love

拾起的两片贝壳
再一次遇见你的奇迹
只要你在身边
内心深处都被温柔包围
就算下暴雨
就算身处暴雨中心
也要将这份爱守护到底

只要和你一起
一定可以做到
第一次有了这样的想法
永远不放开这只手
珍惜每一分每一秒

在这条街上遇见你
至今仍无法忘怀自那天起
将生活和信任变成喜悦
两个人一直并肩走下去
Proud of your love

When the music echoed, i cant help to wonder: when will i ever listen to your voices again...

Not only once i have this thought in mind but everytime, everytime when i listen to their music. It has been quite some time the guys appeared together on the media. It has also been quite a long while i haven seen their performances, listen to them singing and dancing together on stage. Just by the thought of it, it's so heart breaking.

Times and times i listen to their songs again, how familiar these voices are to me. For the past 4 years, almost everyday these voices speak into my ears, sing into my ears and laugh into my ears. It's like listening to a family member's voice. They were never far away from me. I have never felt that they were far away but right at this moment, i wonder where have they gone? Where are they right now?

It's a waste, totally a waste consider what they are doing now. Fighting over something that is not worth at all. Maybe... maybe for the 3 of them, it's worth it. I totally understand that it's not at all wrong for the guys to fight for their own privileges so that they are not always being exploited by the record company. But right at this stage of time, everything seems to be to no avail. None of the parties are willing to give ways. Besides that, 3 of them are seems to be in a protest. Is this all worth it at all?

"If only you guys remember how much you guys have been through together, if only you guys still remember the fans are here to stay, will you guys come back?"

This is probably the first time i tear out since the boys went into the disputes. I was never worry about them because i know everything will eventually turn out. But I'm afraid this does not seems to be the case again. I hate to say that, but reality have to come back to the equation.

Still, 'always keep the faith'...

A little something to share

TaeYang's second solo album is officially out. This title song is called 'Wedding Dress'. My k-bud adores this a lot. He is also the first one who updated me with this sing. I'm not a big fan of his but undeniably, a lot of people think of TaeYang as the Asian Chris Brown. The R&B beat and the moves got the Chris Brown feel to it. However, he does not impress me much because I've seen a lot of him like this before but i guess this is his signature. By the way, i like the choreography for this song.



Another one which i like so much is Park Bom's 'You and I'. Park Bom is currently a member of a girl group called '2NE1' but this is somewhat her solo single. Every member did their own solo singles. You can clearly tell from the music video the meaning of the song. This is a sweet sweet yet sad mv.

Strong Baby

Why 'Strong Baby'? I'm not so sure why. It's because I'm listening to SeungRi's 'Strong Baby', so this word just come to my mind.

Land Law tutorial today. Freakin freakin nervous whenever it's Mr.H's tutorials. He knows I'm the quiet one and he does hate students who keep quiet during tutorials. That's why he will never forget to call me up to answer questions. But the problem is, he never remember my name. Esther?! Two times in two tutorials he called me Esther. Finally today, he did remember my name. Boy~ i sure went all blank every time he calls my name. Maybe there's lot of the course mates dun think it's a big deal to being called up because they will eventually spill out an essay and i will be like @.@ It's not that i dun wanna speak out, i really think SCHS students are somehow spoon-fed by the high school teachers and i am also one of them who am so used to take in what i heard. I never have to use my brain nerves to think too much. If this is what the book has in words, then just eat it! NO NO NO students, this is not the theory to survive here. Now then i find it hard to adapt. Just because I was not asked to figure, i was not asked to question and so here i am, being the mute in class.

Trying... Still trying to speak out more at class. It's not easy at all especially when you are in a bunch of super super intelligent student. They are not just super super intelligent, THEY ARE INSANE!! I'll try. I'm a strong baby! LOL


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Enough of dull and boring school stuff. There's something worth more excitement than college life. 'The Twilight Saga - New Moon' premiered in Los Angeles yesterday. God i can't wait!! When is it gonna be available in Malaysia's cinema? The precise date, i'm not that sure about it. The official website shows 27th Nov, some other sources shows 26th. It should be no other days than these two days. The highly-anticipated movie. Those who love the franchise movie cant get enough of it, those who hate it...well... they are just jealous:P I find boys tend to dislike it more than girls. I would say the novel series are meant more for girls. How a girl wants her perfect prince charming to be. Of course we can never ask for a real vampire. It's just how affectionate Edward treats Bella and so how drop dead gorgeous Stephenie Meyer described Edward. In person, Robert Pattinson is also HAWT!!
Ooops, sorry for the fan girl misbehave^^a It's all just my humble humble opinion.:D

Counting down the days, her i come 'New Moon'. I'll be there in line to book those tickets.

Attention people!

Finally, i officially made my own new blog. Initially, i have one which is like my diary where i will write down all my feelings and shhh... everything inside is a secret. Believe me, you can never search it on the google search machine. Or maybe you can:P

God knows every Taylor's Law School year 2 student is going to be busy busy this week consider we have Land, Consti and international law tutorials. How on earth do i still have the time to open a new blog? Well... i dun call it a reason, but an excuse. The excuse is real simple - i am just too lazy to work on those complicated rules and laws. Sometimes i wonder, why the heck these judges wanna make their life so hard thinking too much. Just stick to the God damn rule!! Wouldnt that be much more easier? Then we would not have that much cases and exceptional rules to memorize. But maybe i'm just too stupid to study Law. :(

With this new blog to manage now, maybe i will really come up here everyday, or maybe i will end up abandon it. It's not like i'm a blogger like Suet Mei :P By the way, i am pretty impressed by the way she manage her blog. HELLO MYSELF, she's a pro. LOL Anyways, please do feel free to comment on my post. Then again, Tata!! XOXO